Today, January 11, 2024, under the new moon and angel number 111—a symbol of new beginnings—I officially launch ‘Desire Create Enjoy.’ This blog marks a journey into the realms of desire, creation, and enjoyment. There was a time when I was such a zealot that mentioning any of these concepts would have had me labeling myself as part of the occult. But life has a way of reshaping beliefs.
My Journey of Awakening
My awakening began unexpectedly. It was seeing the movie ‘Zeitgeist’ in 2011 that first jolted my then overzealous ‘everyone is going to hell’ Bible-thumper religious foundations, as it deeply upset me and offended my religious beliefs. Then, a friend’s tragedy in 2012 made me question everything. This pivotal moment led me away from my zealot behavior, and I credit that experience with my awakening. I mean, I did watch ‘The Secret’ along with the rest of the world when it was released. However, I guess the only part that “stuck” was the scene with John Assaraf and building a vision board, because I didn’t change my vibration or my thoughts, and there were many subsequent ups and downs in life.
Challenges and Turning Points
I mean, I still achieved a lot, but then in early 2017, I was going through a particularly challenging emotional period while running my small business. One day I had a conversation with a client that changed my life. I was really struggling, with no direction, but I told her that morning it was weird because I saw something that gave me a slight amount of hope. It said something like if you hold a thought for 17 seconds, the momentum changes. She mentioned that it sounded like Abraham Hicks.
After that appointment, I looked it up, and that’s exactly who it was. She said that this was not by chance, and that it was something called a synchronicity. After that, I began to immerse myself in ‘The Secret’ and Abraham Hicks’ teachings while at work, focusing on shifting my mindset amidst the challenges. This encounter was a turning point and led to what seemed to be a flow of synchronicities and manifestations into my life through the Law of Attraction (LOA). I even realized that I had manifested everything on that initial vision board I built after watching ‘The Secret’ without even realizing it.
The Dark Night of the Soul
But what happens when “Ms. Manifestation” goes through a dark night of the soul? When her life falls apart? When even she stops believing in LOA, and all of the people she taught and helped have to remind her? Well, that’s what happened to me after the year 2020. I mean, 2020 wasn’t a completely horrible year. It actually had some really high points. I had some huge manifestations and met an amazing man who took care of me. I got engaged with the exact ring that was on my Pinterest board, and manifested a ton of what was on my 2020 vision board. And even though I had to close my business of 10 years, it worked out for a while, and I was able to survive. Until… in 2021, things kind of began to fall apart. While I had some high moments, the low moments dominated, especially in 2022. I lost my younger cousin to violence in 2021, had a failed new career attempt, and the last few months of 2022 were a complete disaster. I actually ended up homeless for a short time. The really difficult part is, I was “Ms. Manifestation”, “Ms. You Can Be, Do, and Have Anything.” This was what I preached to all of my family, friends, and clients at my former business, and I could not believe what my life had become.
Rediscovery and Growth
But finally, somehow, I started to remember who I was. I was introduced to Neville Goddard and the Law of Assumption in 2022, and I became more stable in 2023. Embracing those concepts, in addition to my Law of Attraction background with the help of a whole new set of gurus such as Neyah, Sammy Ingram, The Wizard Liz, and Manifesting Gaia on YouTube, I started to try to pull myself up. In May 2023, I started saying “yes” to the good things and opportunities the Universe brought into my experience, and started to get away from a person who made me feel even lower vibration than my hellish life was already causing me to feel.
Once that vibe began lifting, things began to get better. And I will be completely honest, right now, it’s not perfect, but I am hopeful. Late 2022, I was completely hopeless. Right now, I am still clearing some of the junk in my subconscious that has been below the surface for many years and that I allowed in during my low vibrational period. I guess you could call it getting back to being the girl I used to be. The one who ‘pivots’ from negative thoughts. The girl who completely believes. As Abraham Hicks says, “Life is supposed to be fun, and you really are supposed to have a happy journey to your happy ending,” I am realizing that is true, no matter how much that statement annoyed me before.
The Purpose of This Blog
So, what exactly is ‘manifesting’, creating, visualizing, and all this ‘woo-woo hippie stuff’? I’ll explore topics like these because beliefs and experiences vary. We might agree, disagree, or learn together. I see these topics as “Up for Discussion.” This section is inspired by influential figures in my journey, such as Abraham Hicks, Dr. Joseph Murphy, Dr. Joe Dispenza, Idillionaire, Sammy Ingram, Manifesting Gaia, Neyah, Neville Goddard, Wayne Dyer, and Rhonda Byrne with “The Secret.” They all essentially say the same thing: thoughts become things.
However, this blog isn’t about dictating who is right or what’s true. It’s about sharing my experiences, thoughts, personal aha moments, and more. I’m not here to argue about the right way to do things or the “Techniques” I write about.
This platform is for me to share everything I’ve encountered in my awakening and to put it out there, as it could help someone. It’s honestly all “Just My Opinion“. This is the manifesting world as seen through my lens.
Also, there is just something about reading stories of others doing amazing things that really inspires me. Over the years, I’ve come across so many people with “Success Stories“, creating magnificent things, sometimes even completely unaware that it was they who had manifested and created this reality for themselves. I am excited to include them here, and I hope they inspire you as well.
Disclaimer: If anything here triggers you, here’s my forever response: Your opinion is valid, and whatever you believe is true for you. This blog is through my lens. The end.
The Significance of ‘Enjoy‘
The ‘enjoy’ part is really important to me because I started to notice that I would achieve my goals or manifest things, and either not fully enjoy them, or enjoy them briefly before returning to sadness about what hadn’t manifested. This bothered me. How can you be in a beautiful suite after flying first class, arriving to beautiful gifts with a man you love so much, and still feel depressed? How can you be living your dream of hanging out with the cool girls in Paris, in school learning French, because you missed your opportunity in college, and still feel anxious and worried? Or be on a boat in Greece, sailing the Greek islands on a catamaran free of charge with amazing, fabulous Europeans, and still feel like something is missing? Well, that was my situation.
Now, I know and am learning, as annoying and cliché as it was to me, you really need to find joy in the journey. Being here on Earth is about enjoying it, which is why I added the ‘enjoy’ part to Desire. Create. I don’t want to just focus on desiring and creating alone. I really hope that everyone remembers to actually enjoy it, but also keeps what they have manifested without worrying about losing it,and feels so high vibration that they continue to bring even more amazing things into their lives. Essentially, that we all a achieve our desired ‘state of being’. I must have missed that part of the lesson initially too! Ha!
Launching ‘Desire Create Enjoy
So today, on 1.11.24, I find it very fitting to officially launch ‘Desire Create Enjoy’. As Abraham Hicks says, “Everything you want is because you think you will feel better in the having of it.” I used to believe that my goal was to be a good person and then go to heaven. Now, I believe we are here for the desires our souls set before coming here, to create those desires and then finally enjoy them. So here we are. Desire. Create. Enjoy. Me even being able to write this right now is a testament that my life is turning around.
I initially started working on this in 2020, but let self-doubt and life drama get in the way. But like Abraham Hicks says, you never get it wrong. And lately, I have been manifesting amazing things. Things are just lining up, simple things. And I know it’s only going to get better. I remember that on January 16, 2018, something life-changing and devastating happened to me, but I was really getting stronger in my law of attraction belief then. Through all that pain, I said NO, this was going to be my year. And it was. 2018 overall was a good year for me. Well, already in 2024, a few curveballs have been thrown my way. But like I said in 2018, “I SAID WHAT I SAID. 2024 WILL BE MY YEAR. I CREATE MY REALITY.” And whatever “curveball” is thrown my way, I am not letting up. I will pivot to what I want, robotically affirm, meditate, and live in the end until I am purple in the face. It’s THAT serious. I want to live an easy, happy life.
It’s about time I rise from the depths, rebuilding what was lost, and then going beyond to create the life I’ve always dreamed of. As I navigate this path of renewal and growth, I invite you to join me.
And although I am super excited about the other things I am working on, this blog is probably more special and important to me than my other projects. It’s something I’ve been itching to do and am truly excited about. I’m so eager to take this journey with you. I have so much to say, write, and put out there. While I won’t be opening comments initially because I am in a personal process of rebuilding, eventually I hope to open up. I really want to hear and include your amazing success stories and see what you think, maybe open up to new ideas, perspectives, and ways of looking at things, because that is all a part of the joy in the journey as well. This is the year I’m making it happen.
Ready, set, go!
